Education

In the modern day, education is highly valued and often deemed the most important aspect of a person's life. In many ways, i completely agree. I hope the skills i already know and the skills i  have yet to learn will land me in a much desired occupation someday. Everyday i go to school and look around at my classmates, only to see a bunch of people who don't care or are just plain out stupid. That's not to say everyone could care less about their grades, but to say a majority won't make it in life. I don't see where working a tedious dead-end job might make someone happy. For me, i'm only successful when i'm accomplishing the goals i have already set out for myself. Although, i often set goals of perfection and fail to fully reach them. maybe this  is an underlying reason for any and all misery i have  due to the fact that i am never satisfied with myself. I know feeling like i'm failing myself all the time will lead to terrible things, but the only thing i believe i should be worried about is education. Was i raised right? Sure, having high intelligence and prioritizing school seems like the perfect way to live my life, but i feel i lack in most anything else. How would my life be different if i actually had a father figure around? It's a tragedy because this, i will never know. The education system in the United States maybe just isn't right, this is shown best by how poorly we are ranked in the world. I feel that it is many of the concepts in school that makes for bad grades and poor learning. People should not be passing because they did their homework, they should be passing because they know the material. Even then, most of our society rebels when it comes to work and learning. A nation full of convenience and sedentary lifestyle has lead to a society of extreme laziness. All i know is that i must keep pushing forward and i must make certain grades, even if they aren't of my perfect expectations. The life i want to live later on won't be easy to reach, there are no shortcuts to any place worth going. At this point in my life, education-wise, i'm thinking alot about college, such as where i want to go and what will it be like? After all, how you can you expect to live a life worth living when you are uneducated like that of a monkey?

Believe

Everyone believes in something right? That's what i thought for most of my life. A majority of my life was spent following the ways of a Christian. However, sometime in middle school i began to question God and Christianity. But, my questioning did not stop there, i began to question religion as a whole. I began to understand science and how well it applied to everything in the universe. Since then i have been an avid supporter of science and dare not question it with religion, which i consider foolish. But even then, beliefs run deeper than just how one thinks humanity came to be. Beliefs transfer to people's everyday lives and easily affect every decision they make. Now when i think to myself alot, i begin to wonder, what do i believe in? what are my ethics, morales, and values? I constantly find myself arguing both sides of everything which means i don't have a stable set of beliefs. Lately, i have been beginning to think this is cause for everything terrible in my life, including my unstable and ever-changing mind. It wouldn't surprise me if it was cause for all the agonizing pain within me, if it was cause for the constant battle inside of me that i can never win. Whenever i look at all the negative in the world, i just couldn't imagine some greater life force existing, that wouldn't make a damned bit of sense. Hopefully, throughout the course of this blog, i will discover myself more deeply and find something solid to look up to. Everyone needs something to believe in.